I am happy with my life but I miss my husband so much I just want to be with him in the afterlife, though it is hard as I don t want to do any harm to myself or give grievance to my kids but I cannot wait till I die to be with him again ..how many other widows feel this way, I am grieving my hubby so much and I don t know if this is normal or not, I cannot wait until I can be with him again ??